Thursday, November 27, 2008

do you believe in india?

do you believe in the idea of india? of the unity in diversity, of religious tolerance, of freedom, democracy, plurality, of whatever else it is that you hold dear about india...stand up n be counted...enough is enough! such a complete failure by the state to protect it's people...utter disarray n chaos i have never seen. the guardians should be hanging their heads in shame...no, not the nsg, armed forces, etc but our super-pampered thick skinned shameless politicians. off with that wimp home minister, off with the cm... if there has been an intelligence failure, it is only because we've alienated the community so much that we've killed the very sources who'd tip us off otherwise...did we have to lose our 3 top guys in less than 30mins?

after spending most of last night trying to make sense of the unfolding mayhem n pacifying anxious relatives across the globe,..by the morning anger had seeped in...i felt so angry that it took them over 9hrs to send the nsg in n that too after day break and even as i write, almost 20hrs later they are no where near securing the 3 locations under attack.
i took the train down to vt this morning to donate blood at st george hospital...in a desperate attempt to "do something positive". the trains were up n running...empty. the otherwise bustling churchgate station deserted...i walk gaping around the silence as if in some funk...reality hits home at the hospital gates. army, police, ambulance sirens, blackboard list of the dead, worried-sick relatives...more dead bodies being brought in...stoically i join the long line to donate...there must've been another 60 of us. dentistry students volunteering thru the night...my pouch filled, i walk back down thru the hospital thru the ground floor open morgue...more cops, more tourists, more worried relatives...still more bodies coming in.

i step out into the glare n heat...into a city barren at noon. walk across to vt station...become one of the "terror tourists" - everyone pointing for the newly arrived, " there, see that bullet mark on the wall...and over there on the column, n there up shattering that glass, n there the broken indicator."...struggling hard to keep the numbing feeling growing...i began to speak to some railway protection force jawans...pathetic n heart-rending...this guy had lost 3 of his colleagues in last night's gun-shower. all he had was a fibreglass lathi. even if they carry a gun/rifle, he informs me, they are not allowed to carry ammo. if they do carry ammo, they are instructed - one bullet, one man dead wanted! better not to carry a gun, sir, he trails off...

i hurry out n hail a cab to the taj...my heart's been bleeding seeing those images of the top floor of the old taj burn. i mean, it's not about being the most expensive suites in the country, it's our heritage, history being burned. those suites played host to the biggest and the best...heads of state, jazz greats, hollywood stars, fashion czars, sportspersons...you name em all. by the time i go there, most of the top floor was ash...smoke still billowing out...my heart just crumbled. more anger...more desperation...did someone ask, what next - "secular terrorism"? am seriously considering it...

4 comments:

Kanika said...

Dear Ajay,

Its just crazy, sitting here in delhi all one can do is gape at the tv screens and listen to all the versions coming from different television channels. and those bloody politicians fly down, make a hue n cry about the very things that they do...the forces do their job when asked to but the strings are too many and mostly in the wrong hands.
its apalling.
take care, though.
Kanika.

Ankur's Arena said...

It's the worst situation for a 'democratic nation' to be wounded by incidents like these...

we all are hurt...
we all are doomed...
actually, we all are cheated...

If we are not safe to such an extent, then i have no regret in saying that India, for me, is no more the best country in the world!

I think the time has come for some serious judgments to make...

By
-one wounded Indian

Karan Bali said...

Spot on Ajay. I think a lot of us feel the same. I too had put up a post when the operation was about 40 hours old. Normally I have never written on stuff like this but guess it just came out...

http://www.upperstall.com/blogs/punjab-da-puttar/mumbais-fight-with-terror/

I think we have to see on a practical level what we can do to make a difference in the future.

Meeting and talking about it first would be a beginning. What do you say?

ajay noronha said...

o absolutely karan, let's meet early this week n put our heads together.
n kanika, karan - i really don't know what to say...a few months ago it was in delhi n i sat here horrified...tomorrow it'll be elsewhere...